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4/17/26 - 7:04AM

Recently I've been having a bit of a problem. I really want to make clothes that me and others can wear proudly and I know how to sew and everything but.....I've realized something. I don't think I even like the process of sewing or just making clothes in general, i only like the product. When I am sewing, I notice that I'm actually irritated through the entire process which is why I have to take like 40 breaks in between and never get anything actually done. I'm only happy when the product is done and that's IF it came out the way it did in my head. This is a big problem for me because I do actually want to make my own clothes but i don't know how to make the process more....pleasant.

Sometimes I have this big burst of energy like I'm ready to create something but when I get to it, everything all falls apart.
I don't really know how but this weekend I'm going to try really hard to snap out of it and make something I really like, and maybe even finish some of my wips. I'm tired of never feeling like doing the things I want to do (it's so suffocating) so this time I'm going to try and pull myself out of that little hole I've been in for the past few weeks.

why do people do this

This is just a rant but...

I cannot stand people who cancel on you or drop out of something last minute.
A lot of the people in my life are guilty of this and its genuinely so annoying, like i understand that sometimes life happens and things come up but when it gets to a point where this is a habit that you keep cancelling shit last minute without any notice it makes me want to literally rip my hair out.

I don't know why people keep doing that, like making plans with people just to cancel the day of without telling them it's like a slap in the face but everyone i talk to keeps doing stuff like tha and it makes me feel like i'd be better off alone because at this point everyone just keeps wasting my time that i could use doing literally anything else.

I beg you people please be more considerate of anyone that isn't yourself its not as hard as you think.

its so tiring

Another rant (sorry sobs)

today i got to find out why my bsf since like 4th grades mom all of a sudden doesnt like me cs apparently im a "bad influence" WHAT did i even do. god forbid i just wanna hang out w my friend after like months of not seeing her since i had to move and get back situated since my mom passed.

i swear i cant have one nice thing to myself can i? ok and i know im prolly being like super dramatic and ill get over it tmrw but this genuinely made me so upset cs like i actually have no clue what i said/did. Whatever, I'll live.

To end on a lighter note, i got these rice face masks and they're working really well, my face is starting to clear up!!!! i do really need to drink more water though (i will soon i promise)

i miss drawing

I remember back when I used to be so passionate about my art, now I rarely draw at all. A few years ago I would somehow draw like every single day but then art block hit and I realized I actually hated my art SOOO much which caused me to get burnted out and unmotivated. Sometimes I still make a little doodle to myself but I don't ever draw nearly as much as I used to and that saddens me a little.

Recently, I've been thinking about drawing more. I have no clue where this random spark of interest came from but I really want to get more crafty and make a bunch of cute things! I have a bunch of art supplies laying around my room and I think it's time to take a break from everything else and finally get back into drawing again. (after all i didjoin my schools art club)

When I do start drawing again, I promise to show y'all!!!!

100 questions

1. Please introduce yourself.
Hiii, my name is kennedy and i just like making stuff
2. How long have you been making websites?
The oldest website I remember making was in 2022
3. And what got you into the hobby?
Youtube! I was bored one day and i decided to learn html because it looked cool to me.
4. What kind of website are you most interested in?
I love cute sites with interesting blogs, although my taste does change a lot.
5. What's your workflow? Do you plan your websites out thoroughly or do you come up with the design as you go along?
I usually make sites/pages with a random burst of motivation. I'm the kinda gal who just likes to jump right into things as planning bores me.
6. Please link to your biggest inspirations.
My biggest inspiration is kinda myself in a way. I like creating because it pleases me and gives me a little ego boost when I think back and say 'i really made that?!'
7. What's your favourite part about making websites?
Seeing my layouts all come together and look neat.
8. And the thing you struggle with the most?
Styling....Nothing is ever 'quite right' to me.
9. Do you keep the same layout on all of your pages? Or do you use different ones?
I like to use different ones because i'd just get bored of my site using the same layout.
10. How confident are you with CSS?
confident enough, i tend to not really have troubles with it.
11. Do you know how to correctly use <dl>?
Yes! I used it before in an old fanlisting i made.
12. What is your favourite HTML element?
ahhh this is a good question. my favorites would have to be <iframe>, <canvas>, and <div>
13. If you're making a new web page from scratch, what is the first thing you do?
I reference my stylesheet and add the default styles (*)
14. Do you know JavaScript?
I like to think i do
15. How about PHP?
a little.....I hate it though.
16. Does your website have a theme that you stick to?
The main theme is mint choco however i just use whatever first comes to mind for my other pages.
17. Are you more focused on content or design?
Both, I want to put more content on my page but i'll die if everything doesn't look exactly how i want it to.
18. Do you own a domain name? If not, would you ever want to?
No and I don't think I want one.
19. What do you think of nostalgia-focused or "retro" websites?
If they have nothing actually interesting to offer other than being a basic nostalgicbait site then I don't care about them.
20. Is your HTML valid? Do you even check?
prolly not I never check.....yikes
21. What are your opinion on buttons and banners?
They're really cool! I love all the colors and fun designs people do with those things.
22. What do you think of button walls in particular?
Again, I thin they're cool!
23. If you started over again, would you make something similar or completely different?
Technically I actually DID start again. I've had this site since 2022 but i stopped updating after a while. Now that I'm back my site is COMPLETELY different from what it once was. (thank god)
24. Are you envious of other people's websites?
Not really.
25. What text editor do you use?
Visual studio code
26. Why do you use that one?
It has a bunch of features i like and does what I need.
27. Do you host your image files on your web server, or on another host?
Both
28. This might not be relevant to you, but what's your opinion on the Neocities vs. Nekoweb debate?
I think it's pointless, both do what I need it to do so I like them both.
29. How much server space would you estimate your main website takes up?
have NO clue
30. Do you keep local backups of your files?
yes! all the time
31. Do you prefer simple or highly visual websites?
Honestly it depends on my mood. I usually prefer visual sites but some days I just like simplicity.
32. Do you stick to certain colours? Do you do that on purpose, or is it your subconscious?
I subconsciously use pink and blue a lot....
33. Have you ever thought about quitting? Why?
Nah, I love making sites but I do get too lazy to update often.
34. Do you have many webmaster friends, or is it a solitary hobby?
Not yet, talking to people is tooooo overwhelming to think about right now.
35. Do people in your real life know about your website?
I've showed some of my previous sites to some of my friends but i havent let anyone know about this one and it's probably gonna stay that way.
36. Do you update your website very often? How often is "very often"?
i try to make weekly updates but i have school and im...very lazy
37. And the overall design, do you change that much? Why or why not?
I try not to change my designs often (although i might rework the about page i kinda hate it)
38. Is your website more you-focused, hobby-focused, or outside world-focused?
I's more me focused, everything I make is mainly for my eyes and enjoyment.
39. Do you do web design professionally?
Nope.
40. If not, would you like to? And if you're comfortable answering, what do you do for work?
Right now I'm unemployed but I wouldn't mind doing web design.
41. Do you communicate with people by email very much?
Yes! I'm always emailing.
42. Some people reject social media and use websites as a replacement. Do you keep social media outside of your website?
I still keep social media, all my friends are there. I don't see the point in rejecting social media altogether as long as I use it responsibly.
43. How about instant messengers? Do you use a mainstream one like Discord or Telegram? Or something like Matrix? Do you avoid them?
I have discord but I dont talk on there much.
44. Do you listen to music while you work on websites? If so, what kinds of artists?
I'm listening to music as I write this! my taste is diverse so I really just listen to who comes to mind atm.
45. Do you keep everything you make on one website, or do you have more than one?
I have a problem with making a bunch of sites on a bunch of site hosting platforms....its bad.
46. On a similar note, do you keep to one topic on your site, or many?
I like to keep many as I would get bored of just one topic.
47. Do you present your real self, or at least try? Or do you construct a persona on purpose?
Honestly I'm trying to be a bit more real, sometimes I mask some of my personality which is boringgg.
48. Have you ever made a good friend thanks to your website?
Not yet, maybe one day.
49. Are you happy with the way HTML and CSS currently work?
Yes.
50. What are practices that you think people should avoid?
I have a few: autoplay, layouts that literally break on other devices, having a bunch of images that take 1000 years to load, absolute positioning the enitre layout, putting text over a moving background, hard to read fonts, not opening external links in a new tab, etc
51. What about under-utilised practices, or things you think people should do more?
semantic tags, volume sliders, click to copy buttons, sitemaps, etc
52. Do you use a lot of semantic HTML? Or are you guilty of generic structure?
I love semantic html!!!
53. Do you consider different browsers?
not..really....sorry
54. Speaking of, what's your preferred browser? Convince your readers why they should use it.
I don't really have one, I just don't care enough.
55. And what OS are you on?
Windows..
56. Do you have a strong opinion on that, or do you just happen to use it?
Just happen to use it but it gets really annoying sometimes
57. Are your websites mobile-friendly?
Not now but I'm planning to change that (i swear)
58. What are your thoughts on autoplay?
It's annoying esp when it's super loud. A lot of times when i'm web surfing I do so with my own music playing sooooooooooo
59. What are your thoughts on webrings? Are you in any?
Webrings are really cool but Im not in any at the moment....i'll join some soon i swear
60. Do you have any web shrines? What do you like to see in that sort of page?
No shrines right now but im planning to make some! I love seeing people's creative layouts on shrines its all so cool
61. Are your websites "cliche", in your opinion?
Prolly but I dont care
62. What is your ideal website? Are you striving for that, or for something else?
Honestly, I don't know....My style is always evolving so I can never really know what my ideal site would look like.
63. Are you an artist? Do you draw or design your own assets?
Yes!! I don't draw much nowadays but I loveeeee crafting and making cool stuff, however I didn't make my own assets for this site.
64. What are your favourite resource sites?
All of the resource sites I love are link in my credits page
65. Is there a habit you just can't get away from no matter how hard you try?
Hosting images on other sites....oopsies
66. What's your biggest advice for a new webmaster?
I know I like to jump right into things but for new webmasters I think it would help them to plan their pages and the content they're going to put on it. Doing that you can plan out how you are going to go about building your site in a way that makes sense for what you're going for.
67. Do you keep all your styling in CSS? Or do you hard-code some?
I have an external stylesheet for my home page but for other pages I usually put my styling in <style> tags.
68. What do you think of frameset layouts?
I think they can be cool if they're done right.
69. How about table-based layouts?
oh my god i hate them. I tried using them one to see what all the hype is and i was SO miserable.
70. Do you subscribe to the ideas of "one-column", "two-column" and "three-column" layouts? Do you use any of these?
I like all of them, it depends on my mood which one i'll use.
71. Do you spend longer on the HTML or the CSS?
Css ofc
72. Have you ever made a page with no CSS? It's useful for your thoughts.
I have once because I was too lazy to style it
73. Do you ever find yourself making layouts with nothing to put on them? Or do you only make layouts when the need arises?
I used to do that a lot in the past but not as much now.
74. Would you consider yourself a beginner? Or advanced? Somewhere in the middle?
Kind of a hard question since peopl'e standards are too different but I feel like I'm somewhere in the middle.
75. Do you have a habit of looking at the source code of websites you visit?
If I see something that looks clever to me I'll inspect to see how they went about implementing it.
76. How did YOU learn how to make websites?
Youtube as I stated earlier.
77. Do you ever force elements to do things they're not supposed to?
I sure hope not
78. Thoughts on floating elements?
As in the float property or literally floating elements? If it's the first one I heard you're supposed to refrain from using it but if it's the second then I don't have a problem with it as long as it's not in the way of the content.
79. When you're sizing stuff, what do you use first? Do you use px, em, %, or something else?
I use all three but I think I use % the most.
80. Do you have a favourite font?
A nice burger.
81. Would you run a website with another person? How would that work?
what the hell sure!
82. Do you surf the Web to find new personal websites very often?
Yes, almost everyday actually.
83. Do you bookmark other people's websites? How would you feel knowing someone else bookmarked yours?
If I really like the content or if it has nice resources then I bookmark. If someone bookmarked my site i'd be surprised but really happy!
84. What do you want people to be most impressed with when they see your website?
The design hopefully
85. Are you interested in technology outside of websites? Do you collect?
I don't collect anything but I do loveee technology its so fascinating.
86. How often and for how long are you online?
Literally the whole day. Everyday.
87. When it comes to your website, who is your target audience?
Me me me
88. Have you ever been interested in XHTML?
not really
89. Do you program in general? Have you ever written a program for use with or on your website, not counting simple JavaScript?
Yes, I programmed a music player widget for my school latop because I hate spotify and can't really survive the whole day without music.
90. Speaking of programs that help you make websites, what do you think of static site generators (SSGs)? Have you ever used one?
I've used them before in the past, I love them!!
91. Do you keep a hitcounter? Why or why not?
Nah, I don't need one.
92. Do you frequent forums? Which ones?
Not really...
93. Do you write your page content directly into the editor, or do you prepare it elsewhere, like a text document or a Word document?
Depends on the site but for this one I write everything directly into the editer.
94. Do you think you appear cool to others? A more accurate answer now: do other people ever say you're cool?
Other people have said i'm cool before, I hope they're right.
95. Are you embarrassed of your old work? Have you ever deleted everything out of shame?
YES YES YES....im trying to break out of that though...Never delete your old work you WILL regret it later.
96. Would you close down your website if you couldn't update it, or would you leave an archive?
I'd just leave an archive.
97. Do you reveal a lot about yourself on your website? Or are you more secretive?
I don't reveal THAT much but that might change as I write more blog posts.
98. Are you willing to reveal who your best online friend is, and/or if they have a website?
None of my online friends have websites
99. And do you optimise the images on your website?
welllllll sometimes....
100. We're out of time! How do you feel after answering 100 questions? ....other than exhausted.
I want to sleep